Sunday, 17 June 2018

Time Will Tell

So my mum was taken to hospital, and on reflection of my conversation with the doctor, it doesn't seem as if she will be returning home.

I was presented with the task of telling the others, which I cant say I will do. What do I say?
The words they used were, the beginning of the end... and asked if I understood.
Yes, I understand.
How does anyone really prepare for losing anyone other than to become numb to it, and let it pass.
My sister, ever the optimist told me that there have been many times a bleak prognosis is given and the person involved goes on to beat the odds.
But my mum is up in years now.

Im my head I felt nothing but my eyes welled up abit so I must have felt something very deeply.

I was thinking about my mum recently.
I thought about her life.
Thought about how it had been filled with work...
work work work, helping others.... and more work.
I'm sure if I asked her if she could think of a time she was happy , she may tell me yes.
Childhood days perhaps, if her childhood was devoid of exploitation.
But as we know, young girls in the Caribbean back then didn't always have any easy time.
I hope she was happy tho.
I know we all made her laugh many many times, whenever we all got together , meal times Christmas times
Mums food has been the best,
Mum was my 1st ever nutritionist back when I was an athlete
Always at the finish line, rarely if ever missing a meeting

Mum thinks I'm brave
and I guess that's what will be called for over the next few days or perhaps months
Mums story in many ways has been typical of a Caribbean woman who came here in the 50's
and perhaps knowing that, makes me sad

I hope that my mum knew joy and happiness, I hope mums life has been one which she can look back at as a life well lived, and not too many ( if any) regrets.

I'll tell you something. After my bro, I think mum has simply lost the will... to carry on.

In recalling tracks my mum simply loved and would sing from start to finish - this is one

Bless you mum, and thank you for everything x
We'll hold on as long as you choose

Weekend WOW Factor: Pre Carnival Soca Time

Carnival season is upon us and already I have my favs!

Monday, 4 June 2018

Weekend WOW Factor: Visit Rwanda

England beat Nigeria 2-1, in the friendly at Wembley - oh no say it aint so!.


Fans cued up around the block at Niketown, as early as 6am for the store opening on Oxford Street for the new Nigeria kit, and it's looking good

You know I'm supporting Nigeria in the World Cup, 2nd team Ghana, then England.
It aint just football, no this shit's personal lol! :)


The Human Spiderman Mamoudou Gassama, we've all heard so much about was contacted by the President of Mali and asked to return to Mali... and join the army.
He has apparently declined the offer and accepted the internship with the French Fire Service, and can you blame him?

He did an amazing thing.
What was interesting was the response and the quick reaction of the French President to grant him citizenship and a job.
Is this what our parents meant when they said you have to be twice if not three times as good to break even?
How many other migrants have amazing skills and qualities are being treated poorly because of lack of knowledge of unwilling host nations?
Many migrants have already risked the lives to get to countries such as Turkey or France, yet in order o be seen as fully human, appear to need to overtly and demonstrably risk this lives again, to be given a chance.
Mamoudou is strong young fit and caring. Qualities abound across the continent. I hope his act of bravery and selflessness triggers a deeper understanding in others who may struggle with the issue of migrants.


President Maada Bio of Sierra Leone, visited ministerial office to see who was at work on time. SURPRISE!!.
He left a note for one minister who was late. I'd love to know what it said lol!

watch at 1:50

Rwanda sponsors Arsenal

This kit has caused much debate as to whether President Kagami should be spending so much on a sponsorship deal ( alleged £30 mil) when in receipt of significant International Aid

I do think it will have a positive impact. But I'm an Arsenal fan so maybe I'm biased.

Monday, 28 May 2018

Home Cooking is Best!

Woohoo! Bank Holiday!!

My daughter and partner are coming for dinner so I know the food will be eaten in no time, with content
We don't get to hang out so much, what with everyone being busy so a day off from the slave trade, sorry I mean the rat race, is a welcome one :)

The sun's shining, some sweet reggae music playing, food cooking, flowers in bloom
I'm so grateful

I haven't actually done too much today.
Found unexpected cash in my pocket so went and bought a few essentials, cooked too much rice and peas for the pot so it's now spilling over!, have prepped all my veg and about to finish that up.

As I mentioned, a bit too much rice for the pot..see?

I've been taking a keen interest in food actually. the science of it anyway. watching a few documentaries which are very educational, and is making a lot of sense to me right now.

A few weeks ago I was so dizzy I actually had to go to the hospital. I was seriously unwell, I couldn't walk a straight line, nauseous to the max.
It turned out that out in addition to being anaemic, I had slight ear infection, which was made better in hours. My trip to the hospital was after 3 trips to the doctor/s to be given pretty much the same drug in various guises which didn't work.
The doctor at the hospital was Asian, and looked at me as though to say, 'stop fretting you big baby, you will be fine.. just do this!'
I did what he said, which involved no drugs, and hey presto I was able to walk a straight line again.

The episode highlighted to me the importance of staying away from stress as much as possible, that homeopathic treatments are often more effective, and that ethnic minorities tend to understand what our bodies need in a very different way.

Anyway, back to cooking...

I learnt to cook from my mum. She didn't actually sit me down that I can remember, but I enjoyed watching her in the kitchen, as the food always tasted amazing.

I also enjoyed watching her bake.
As a child we ate a balanced diet.
I eliminated meat and fish from my diet, when I was 16, then resumed fish in my late 20's. Food and African Caribbean spirituality go hand in hand. A source of enegery that should be treated with respect.
That's just one reason I simply cannot and will not eat at Chinese food restaurants or take aways, I need to be able to trust what I'm eating, and that it has been cooked cleanly with love, and .. to be honest, that it's actually food I'm eating.
Eating out can be bit like 'Russian roulette'

I am convinced that some food suit me well, whilst others simply do not.
The Caribbean diet in particular has undergone much scrutiny in recent times, and has been cited by some doctors to be the cause of ailments such as diabetes and high blood pressure, so much so that it's now believed among us that our food is killing us!.

Permit me to wade in on that for a moment

It's not your food that's killing you... dumbass....it's the system.
It's oppression , discrimination and the racism you face, the frustration you feel at your seeming inability to do anything significant about it, your yearning for justice in the face of injustice
Think about it

How can your food be killing you when in the Caribbean it's not uncommon to live well beyond 100?

My own grandmother was 100+,

Yams, green banana , fresh fruit and vegetables, fresh fish, are staple foods
Food is hand cultivated, hand reared, no preservatives, no chemicals. It's in the ground, the soil, on the trees, in the yard ( if you eat meat)
It's in the West that we suffer.
and it really isn't anything to do with our food.
yet if you want to play 'devils advocate'...even if......

Over drinking, over eating, over seasoning , are all symptoms of a stressful lifestyle. Don't let the system fool you.
It's psychological warfare, propaganda, if you're not careful the system will kill you then say you committed suicide.

Home cooking is best.
Eat up your African Caribbean food people, you don't need to add salt, try not to over season, stay away from that unholy pork :)


This is one of my favourites outfits. It's so comfortable to wear . A lady made it for me in Ghana. Just s few hours wait, and bingo, fits like a glove.
I think it's very pretty.

I absolutely love this track!
Beautiful Intro Chronixx

Have a great day x