Spent some time with my big sister today, which was nice.
My nephew was telling me about my sign - Libra, which was all very interesting.
He also said that when people come into your life they do so for a reason. He said that when relationships don't work out they often teach you something.
This.. jarred me a little.
2 years ago I had one such relationship, and it turned out to be one of the worst experiences of my life. It has taken me a very long time to be rid of its effects, and even now, I find I have a tendency to be a little anxious about my relationships. I went from being very secure to extremely insecure in a relatively short space of time. I felt as though my mind was being manipulated for reasons I know not of, that I was involved in some weird game of which I didn't know the rules.. in short, there were many lies involved, and it was hell.. truly awful.
So... what could I have possibly gained from that experience?.
I don't think I gained anything, but my nephew thinks I learned never to make that mistake again.
Maybe. But because it's taken me so long to re-gain my confidence, and because I now have a tendency to insecurity, ( which I have to battle every other day) I don't think it's balanced very well.
I hate that I've had to build myself back up again, but I'm grateful that I've been able to.
I learned nothing from that experience, but I'm glad it's behind me.
We all have a past and often it's best not to bring old wounds in to the present to spoil your future
So okay.. maybe I've learned.. that
But I'll never send a thank you card.