Saturday 26 February 2011

Piano Music

The big thing

Thoughts become things?

I cancelled an appointment today just to have some ‘me’ time
Felt I needed to take stock of everything, read awhile – and just breathe awhile
Thought about the things I’d done well over the week, and the things I could have inevitable done better
Then I thought - who cares?
Yet I care! - About everything – and nothing in almost equal measure – is that odd?
Everything matters to me – yet nothing matters
I guess the trick is working out when to care – and for what - and when to let it go!
Yet do we really ever have the power make that decision - or is it out of our hands?
How much control do we have over our feelings and emotions?
Are they like taps you can turn on and off?


Maybe everything we want - we get – including joy and sorrow
It’s said that everything we see – we touch - began with a simple thought – and thoughts become things
So whatever we want, be it to feel or not to feel, to move ahead or remain static – can become our reality.

Yet if that is so – why then are there so many unhappy people in the world?
Many live another’s reality – a road not carved by them – but for them - by someone else, whether in the developing world or right here in the UK
How many of us actually do what we want to do? –
Can we ever be happy living the expectations of someone else
Conforming to the idea of conformity – instead of truly being free
Surrendering to oppression

There are times when the reality of another can bring much strength and beauty to our lives - can fuel our own motivations - refocus our aspirations and offer us hope

As such, I sourced two poems for you to enjoy
One you may know more than the other
But like songs poems can touch a special place in our hearts
Make us laugh – cry or simply reflect
Can get us fired up or help us to relax
So... I hope you enjoy these

I think us ladies can take a lot from the second poem – despite the final line
I view it as – mankind - humanity

Poem 1

The Road Not Taken - Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And look down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Poem 2

If - Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too:
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream and not make dreams your master;
If you can think and not make thoughts your aim,
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same:
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build'em up with worn-out tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings,
And never breathe a word about your loss:
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings---nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much:
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!


Friday 25 February 2011

The World Watches

A prayer for those caught in the cross fire
The innocents
Those who refuse to follow orders that conflict them
Knowing the punishment that awaits them
Those too young to know why
Too young to know why but old enough to know fear
Old enough to cry
To those cut down in their prime
The unarmed
The activists
Those seeking peace
A rapid solution
May they be protected
May they not see red
May they see another sunrise and easy sunset
Hope is the watchword
As the world watches

Stick a fork in it.. I'm done......!

Now as Jay Z would say.. on to tha' next one!
But not before I chill right out.. It's time - to relax...

What Women Want!..Men Want!..A Poem

A woman wants a man who’ll do as he’s told
Without her ever having to tell him
Someone in a crisis to take control
Knowing that she can always trust him
A sweetheart in the restaurant but a tiger in bed
Who can function in the kitchen when you feel to take a rest
Someone who will do anything for you..
But tell me men… ‘a nuh true fi you too?

Clean and smart
But not afraid to get dirty
Emotionally present
Yet not too clingy
A good conservationist
When the need arises
Yet knows when to be silent
And never criticises
Tactile and playful
Who you rush home to
But tell me men… ‘a nuh true fi you too?’

Expect every now and then to feel confused
Perplexed over the ‘vibe’ towards you
Expect sometimes a one word answer
To feel like you don’t know just what she’s after
An odd look here
Maybe an ‘eye roll’ there
Don’t panic - don’t fret - just be prepared
For at times like that just smile and say
How beautiful you look today
How smart you are to do what you do
I don’t know where I’d be without you
Come to think of it
There’s not much difference at all
Guys like that too the world over
Funny things we humans yes we are
Men and women so different
Yet so similar
So the moral if there’s one I guess may be
To treat someone as you’d like them treat thee
To make you feel special through and through

So tell me men –…‘a nuh true fi you too?’

Get that Friday Feeling!

So - how was your week??

I hope you all had a productive and enjoyable time.
I had two nice surprises this week
Thing number one... The bus driver actually stopped at the top of my road.. waited for me to catch up - and (didn't drive off but..!!) let me on!
Thing number two... The most polite and helpful 'security check' guard at City Hall..lovely
If you had a tough week.. try and find two things in your life that made you smile - see if that helps..let me know what they are..
It's Friday but my working week is not over yet - I said yesterday I was almost complete - and I am... but I must reach the finish line.....

At which point I'm sure I'll feel like doing this!...

But after a nice soak and brush up.. will aim to look like that!!..Yep like a Princess!

What's that you say? try walking around Hackney like that!.. sure.. why not?:-)
Anyway.. no reason you can't be a Princess in jeans right!!

Thursday 24 February 2011

Wish you were here!!

Counting down to 6pm..
You'll be pleased to know I resisted the temptation to turn on the 'TV'
Stayed true to my word and I feel much better for it
I've made a dent anyway so I'm halfway through
It took me almost an hour to focus.. can you believe that?
Anyway..tomorrow is another day How was your day?
Funny - I've worked so hard I just wanna mess around and be quite silly now!!
Ever get that feeling?
Now..where did I put that remote??..
only kidding:-)

Stop Procrastinating!

Okay - my aim today is to stop procrastinating.
I've done pretty much all I need to complete this 'assignment - and presentation'

'Hold up'..what's this?..I'm shocked by what I've just witnessed on The 'Jeremy Kyle' Show
A very young woman said her 'boyfriend' beat her up - kicked her - strangled - her spat in her face - then headbutted her! Did I mention she's pregnant?? well...she is..6mths - so that's not all he's done!!
what the hellllllllllllllllll
I never watch this show - don't think I can watch it now!
I have a day off so it's on in the background..

Anyway - back to my aim for today...
Today my aim is to stop 'not' taking action and get it done..
Oh my gosh - the creep is on now!! the crowd are booing him....
Again.. Dawna - to the plan..

I was given sound advice that it helps to 'do the thing you don't want to do 1st..
whatever you're putting off - do 'that' first.. then you'd have the rest of the day to yourself...promise??..yay!!

So.. I'm going to hoover - then knuckle down to work..then later - have a wonderfully relaxing bubble bath and watch Comedy Central!!

You wont believe it!..the man said he if he didn't care about his woman would he have this??? - then proceeded to expose what looked like some 'kinda' home made tattoo of her name 'etched' on his left chest! At which point Kyle just screamed at the guy ' What's that?? - you think that makes you a Mahnnnn??...I tell you what men do - they don't beat WOMEN!!

(Heck..reckon every woman needs a 'Jeremy Kyle' in her life - he's very - kinda feisty though - funny sometimes - is he always like this??

Okay.. they've all calmed down now.. 'Kyle's' offering sage advice.. couples advice..tapping in to the guys 'better nature'.. has hope for they can turn it around..

It's like theatre... I've seriously gotta turn this thing off!!
Ok - found the off button..speak later..thinking of you..wish me well..let you know how I get onx

Wednesday 23 February 2011

History Makers - A Poem

Every day we make history
The things we do
Things we say
Can shape the world around us
Subdue or elevate us
Our actions can define us
We - are history makers

We hear stories of great leaders
Our elders
Those who’ve paved the way for us today
They took a stand
Took a chance
We are testament to their advance
They were weary
They - were history makers

There’s a saying that opportunity only knocks but once
If that is so
We have to be the ones to knock some more
Not wait for time to pass
Wondering who will or what if
Develop the skills we need to continue the paradigm shift

The empowered… victorious
Contented - centered - glorious
Sleep the sleep of the just
We are here now
Make it count
We - are history makers

Behind every great man they say... A Poem 'Don't forget me'..

I’ll back you
Support you
Nurture your dreams and believe in you
I’ll love you
Hear you
Because I recognize the power in you

I recognize the skills in you
The abilities that dwell in you
That given the chance
You’ll excel ..exceed
Beyond the scope they’ve set for you

So while you battle through the mire
Set your goals and aspirations higher
Look ahead to all the glorious things life holds for you
Stoke your intellectual fire
Qualifications you acquire
All I ask is that you don’t forget me

As silently I do pursue
Manage disappointments just like you do
Faced what appears like persecution often
Triumph and overcome
Stood firm and did not run
For knowing as with all things a change will come

You love my beauty love my grace
Love my loyalty my faith
No one in the world could ever ask for more
You believe in me
Succeed with me
Understand my dreams and celebrate with me
Always in your heart you have a space for me

Never one to bring you down
I’ve kept my counsel for so long
Never stressed you … yet we drift further apart
So tell me are we wrong
In our pursuit to be strong
To lose the very thing we need the most

So as we moved ahead
To each other we have said
That I will never ever leave your side
I was honest I was true
And you know what
So were you
So all I ask is that you don’t forget me

Monday 21 February 2011

Power Corrupts?

Protesters in Egypt and more recently Libya have expressed a desire for freedom - democracy - fairness - equality...whist their leaders express a desire to remain in control! This reminded me of a well known quote - and I began to think of it's truths..

Lord Acton, expressed this opinion in a letter to Bishop Mandell Creighton in 1887:

"Power tends to corrupt, and absolute power corrupts absolutely... Great men are almost always bad men."

Here's a similar quote from another English politician - William Pitt, aka the Elder, aka The Earl of Chatham and British Prime Minister from 1766 to 1778, in a speech given to the UK House of Lords in 1770:

"Unlimited power is apt to corrupt the minds of those who possess it"

What do you think?... true?

I think... "Power - like money - takes on the personality of he or she who possesses it. Both can be used to harm or build - promote - or suppress!...corruption(In the context of power).. in many ways is just another manifestation of fear

Maybe - the saying should be
"Fear - tends to corrupt... and absolute fear corrupts absolutely.. therefore
Fear.. is best avoided at all costs!"

So why do seemingly good leaders turn 'bad' 'rogue'.. and do they really change? I suspect they never really changed at all..we just get a glimpse into a previously unseen aspect of who they are...
Fear of losing control? control of what - whom exactly?
Fear of reprisals?.. why..who did you harm?
Who knows..human nature never ceases to amaze..

But a nations Army - should never be used against it's own people..

Where do I see thee? A poem for you..

Where do I see thee?

On a rain soaked pavement
Sporting shades of grey
Now a host to colorful water rainbows, and the musicality of feet
Simmering brightly when the sun shines
Like tired eyes
Like love filled eyes

The beggar on the corner of a local store
With only his black and white dog for company
Politely stretching forward his hand
For a penny or three
A brief glimpse of the man he was
The man he will be again

On the faces of the busy commuters
Rushing to get to their destinations
Amidst pained and frustrated expressions
Thoughts of loved ones heading in another direction
Or of a lust filled weekend
Propel them further forward
With a little less anxiety
A little more

The impatient bus passenger who decides to walk
Oblivious now to traffic
A clutter free mind on a mission
Seeking shelter
A much loved and over used dusty old shed
Anticipating the arrival of sunnier days
A fine wine bar
Or a quiet church instead

This is Hackney

Where do I see thee?


Friday 18 February 2011

Try some old school RnB?

Hey all .. permission to write an entire play purely to culminate in this track being played at the end..??
Really.. gosh .. thanks...
Again - no vid' but don't really need can just play it in the background.. browse through a few of my previous posts and chill..
If you like it as much as I do - you can invest in the album if you haven't already got it..
Hope you like.. 'bellissimo'

Again for Reggae Fans

The next generation..
Featuring the son of Alton Ellis..son of Bob Marley, and Jah Cure

No Vid'.. just enjoy the sound!..

Happiness.. all in the mind?

Hurray it's the weekend! I had a great week and I hope you did too!

I was asked this week - twice actually and I couldn't think at the time (it happens right!!) - but now - having given it due respect and thought - okay - I confess - right now - I am pretty happy! Why did I have to think about it?? - I guess it crept up on me - I didn't realise - then again maybe I did but didn't want to admit it.. who knows? - I'm 'kinda odd!!..may-b-e
So... as a bit of fun I thought I'd post this link to an online happiness test..
Maybe you're happier than you realise

N.B I could very easily feel like 'cwap' tomorrow... roll with it I say.. your feelings are there for a reason.. to be felt - and just like the seasons - are subject to change - but unlike the any time!
Live in the now!! as the book says 'embrace the power of now'

Thursday 17 February 2011

The Obamas are coming!

Looking forward to the state visit!

The Welfare State..

So David Cameron today delivered a speech on the Welfare Reform Bill - aka the ‘dismantling of the Welfare State’ Bill - with his usual confidence and unfettered self belief.
Our P.M was quick to assert that the bill is “not an exercise in accounting” yet referred to it as "an economic necessity” Keen to stoke up the passions of the passionate people he also referred to it as a “moral necessity”...of...“changing our culture”
What culture?...Oh – of course - he means the Benefits Culture… the Welfare- State- Culture..
Since its conception the Welfare State has been the pride of Britain across the World. Hard to disagree with Beverages principles of - the eradication of want, disease, squalor, ignorance, and idleness, especially when you consider what life in Britain was like at that time.
So what’s changed?
Why now - does our 43yr old Prime Minister feel the need to further subjugate people to a life of banal poverty and squalor?
There’s nothing morally right, or morally necessary about imposing draconian punishment on those who are little able to fight back.
Speaking today Cameron said “ If you're unemployed and refuse to take either a reasonable job(define reasonable!) or do some work in your community in return for your unemployment benefit (Big Society?) you will lose your benefit for 3mths, do it again, you’ll lose it for 6mths, refuse a third time and you’ll lose your unemployment benefits for 3yrs”

Does Mr Cameron not know any unemployed people? You see I feel that if he did, he could not so comfortably impose such a rule. If he does – then I’m shocked… well...almost. I also find it unusual to hear such out of touch rhetoric from a man of his age... let’s face it he’s young...around my age actually – and our 'generation' is not supposed to be as ‘stiff necked’ as the generations before us!!.. Are we not meant to be the cool ones??.. what happened to ‘Cool Britannia’? - Oh sorry .. that was ‘Blair’s’ honeymoon… well - the honey moon is well and truly over now.. but still - I’m confused - how will these people live? - What will they eat - how will they wash - what will they wear - how will they pay their rent… with- no- money?
David Cameron talks about wanting to simplify the system - then goes on to say…
“You’re on Job Seekers Allowance and you have the chance to do a few hours work. - today after the first £5 you earn, you lose a pound of benefits for every extra pound you take home, but with the universal credit you would keep 35p of benefit for every extra pound you take home..”
Apparently 1 in 4 adults of working age, (who the government suspect can work) are not working...and that is an issue, yes... but the real issue for me is - why? - If it’s through lack of education and skills ( which in my experience is often the case) then that’s what we need to invest in.. Not ‘cut’ – ‘invest’. The confidence of the unemployed will increase as a wonderful by product, and the country - as a benefactor – will benefit.

I do not believe in Idleness either... most people don't - but if the jobs that the 1in 4 currently have access to won’t pay them enough – the choices for them right now are – ‘take that job and not pay my rent ‘( risk homelessness) or 'take that job and not eat every day’ ( risk poor health ) or - don't take that job - and risk the wrath of David Cameron’s policies…hmmm

I don’t disagree with everything Cameron says - not at all –on some things he has a point - but on this one I get the feeling that Beverages principles of Income, Heath Education Housing and Employment are in serious danger… It makes me nervous.. I wonder - If Beverage were around today - what he would think – would he be nervous too?

Let's hope this Bill works - for all our sakes!

Wednesday 16 February 2011

Having a bad day?

This is for the guy on the bus, who freaked out, swore at the passengers, demanded to be let out on route, stormed off - looked back - then gave the driver a two finger salute..
That - people - is what I would call someone having a really bad day!

A taste of spring to come!

Once in a while I look at a photo, until I can look outside!

Tuesday 15 February 2011

Because it matters...because you matter..

It doesn’t matter
If you don’t have the latest shoes
Or the newest outfit
It doesn’t’ matter if you don’t have a car, or own your own home
It doesn’t matter if you’re not the prettiest, or the most handsome
Matters not what you weigh - or how tall - or short you are
It doesn’t matter that you’re not the most popular,
Doesn’t matter if you are
It doesn’t matter if you’ve never been on holiday
Or if you travel frequently every year
It doesn’t matter if you have the latest phone - note book or kindle
Doesn’t matter if you don’t
It doesn’t matter if you’re the best cook around
Or if you can only cook a few simple dishes
Matters not if you have little money
Matters not if you’ve much

What matters is that you understand what it means to love
That you don’t fear it
That you have felt the pain of disappointment
But you’re not hostage to it
That your intuition is aligned
And your Ego controlled
That you’ve learnt to really laugh
Equally – to cry
That your values mirror who you are
That you are a vessel for goodness
That you have 1 good friend
That you have learnt to be a friend also
That gossips have no evidence
Yet even if – you apologise not - for who you are
That you emit joy
That you never rely on hope or luck
That you’re comfortable with - will – and - is

It matters that you’ve learnt to kiss
And hold hands without expectation
That you have danced at least 1 slow dance
And slept under the stars
It matters that you’ve walked by the sea - a river or a lake
Sat on a bench and fed the ducks stale bread
Helped a pensioner with their shopping
Or given an unrelated child 10p for candy
It matters that you laugh every day
And can still enjoy a children’s cartoon
There’s no finite list
Each to their own
Recognize the beauty in you
Celebrate it…
The beauty in others
Cherish it…
Because it matters…
Because - you - matter...

Childbirth doesn't hurt??...and more!!

My son said childbirth doesn’t hurt – said that women are just ‘extra’ - can’t be any worse than taking his insulin injections!!
I said - *Bwoy…

After my brother’s car broke down he said he’ll drive me to Oxford..
He got it fixed... I asked him again...
He said - Bwoy….

Asked my mate what she did for Valentine’s Day – she said she cooked -she cleaned she watched TV – ‘hubby’ went out
We both said – Bwoy…

Malcolm x said – “Be peaceful, be courteous, obey the law, respect everyone; but if someone puts his hand on you, send him to the cemetery!”
When you think about that - Bwoy

Marcus Garvey said – “The whole world is run on ‘Bluff”
If that’s true – then - Bwoy…

Marcus Garvey also said – “Chance has never yet satisfied the hope of a suffering people”
Hard to disagree - Bwoy

Mayo Angelo said – “I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel…”
She also said - Effective action is always unjust - Bwoy

George Bush said of Iraq in ’97 - “I fully understand those who say you can't win this thing militarily. That's exactly what the United States military says, that you can't win this military." --George W. Bush, on the need for political progress in Iraq, Washington, D.C., Oct. 17, 2007 – Bwoy

Tony Blair said – “Now is not the time for sound bites…but I can feel the hand of history upon my shoulder!” - Bwoy

I said to my son... “Your cats are so greedy... look how they eat... they’re like animals!”...
He said - Bwoy

Donald Trump said “As long as you’re going to be thinking anyway… think big!. “
He also said …”All of the women on The Apprentice flirted with me - consciously or unconsciously. That's to be expected!”

Gotta love him! - now that’s confidence!!’

*Bwoy… ( Not to be mistaken for Boy!)
Slang terminology used:
1. To denote complete despair,
2. When words simply fail
3. When avoidance is required
4. Where disgust is evident but politeness - necessary
5. To express shock
NB :- *Can also be used when in agreement!

Disclaimer… If any of the quotes are incorrect I apologise now… I have no money right now - no real estate to speak of - so please do not sue!… Many quotations were sourced from that ‘electronic fountain of knowledge’… the lazy mans library.. The internet x
Ps if I were extremely wealthy I probably wouldn’t say anyway!

It's light outside! - Spring's on the way

Oh the joy of Spring
I'm feeling 'kinda' poetic this morning all...
Now I'm off to get ready.. long day today..


Now it’s light at 7am
Too bright to stay in bed
For me to pull my duvet tight
I’m alert now – energised instead

With eagerness and trepidation
We wonder of the day
What it will bring what we’ll achieve
Yet we fight on come what may

The cost of living they say will rise
It’s been rising for many - for years
At the end of the month – check the bank balance
Then wipe away a tear
Yet the sun continues to rise
And bulbs begin to grow
It’s long gone now - the days that we
Battled through the freezing snow

Spring – my favorite time of the year
All hope and no pretence
A desire to plant new emotional seeds as well as paint the fence
A prayer here affirmation there – all have their own style
Rituals to help them along
This road that we call life

Smile x

Sunday 13 February 2011

Inspirational Quotes

I'll send these out from time to the videos will change!!
That's not me at then end by the way!.. but well done anonymous lady! quite like that one...

and of course - the beautiful Lauryn Hill

A Womans Worth

Right.. good morning lovely people and an early good afternoon to all..
I have much to do today so will be a bit to speak..
I have articles to read.. dinner to cook( unless I can persuade one of my 'mini me's' to pick up dinner from Grandma).. clothes to to wash.. etc etc..blah blah
A woman's work is never done - you know the score right!!
But I aim to look - feel - and be beautiful later
A girls gota have an aim!! - I hope you enjoy this one from Alicia Keys

Kinda says it all - right ladies..

Improving our Relationships

An an 'antidote' to the Animations..which really is just a fun look at things ( not to be taken seriously!!)
Back in the real world.. I hope this is useful!!..

Saturday 12 February 2011

Night Night..

Funny how it's easier to work at night
less distractions.. less reasons to pursue other tasks
A deliberate rouse to deflect or pass..
on what you know just must be done
that mind of yours has a passion for fun

A mischief maker indeed it is
never growing up - that perpetual kid
Bless that creative gene I say
for without it I'd surely lose my way
I love you now more than than ever before
now get out - leave me be and close the door

To my readers that pass through by and bye
good night I say
time for some shut eye
I hope you had a wonderful day
and that a better tomorrow may come your way
Good night in London - America too..
India and Singapore
Take care of you!

Funny Animation Part 2

Laughter is the best medicine!
Life can be tough hey guys!!

Funny Animation 1 Hmmm

No comment from moi!!

As the World Implodes...

As the Government sabotages its own Big Society..with an ill conceived fiscal strategy
As Local Councils panic
As Egypt celebrates.. perhaps somewhat prematurely
As an elderly woman tackles robbers with a mere handbag whilst younger 'folk' look on
As a section of our young people look in the mirror and 'duck for cover!!
As China's economic grip over Africa increases
As the rich get richer..
and the poor get poorer...
I sit in my favourite spot overlooking 'the garden' ... and struggle to write this blessed assignment..

Well...because Ali Campbell sung his version of Kingston Town on last night's BBC4 Reggae Britania Season and captured a tiny section of my heart in the process...
It's been a while since I've watched anything so that was a pleasant surprise I must say..

Now I've decided I want him to sing to me when I get married..
Presumptuous of me? ... maybe
Shallow?... again - maybe
But who cares??
You see the World implodes... you tend to focus more on things that really matter - and my happiness... is at the top of that list..
(okay - and yours least I hope you would wish that for yourselves - as long as it doesn't involve stepping all over someone else..right!!) so if you run into Mr Campbell... let him know... he has a special invite from Dawna x

Thursday 10 February 2011

A Poetic Interlude!

The Depressed Mind and an alternative Valentine...

You lie in a pitch black room and wait
Motionless - weightless
A heavy heart too heavy a burden to carry
A bloodless wound
Exhausted by every step
Every breath
A bleak and distant land you encounter
A land of dry bones and dust
A land – long neglected by the sun
Just a mirage that appeared
An illusion - that disappeared - just as fast
An uninhabited earth with no sign of life other than your own
The last ship sailed without you
Lost in the dunes the crew searched
To no avail
To them - you are AWOL
Lost even to yourself
You still carry with you an ember of hope
To find yourself once more - to blaze on
Yet time is running out
Your eyes struggle now to bear light
Finding ease in the darkness
The solitude
As your soul creeps away it reminds you of times gone by
Of people long gone
The joy it once knew
Yet it knows that everything is just for a season
Every action born of reason - of purpose
And the depressed mind
Shall be free - once more

Wednesday 9 February 2011

Chemistry - a Valentines Message...

As Valentine’s Day approaches I thought it would be nice to share a few thoughts of a romantic nature. Yesterday I stumbled across an article listing things that women are ‘supposed’ to find attractive in a man... It included things like money, power, build, intelligence, the colour red (yes red!) features - (apparently when seeking a husband we will look for a man with softer – more feminine features - which implies he may be of the more nurturing type). It also stated that individuals are often drawn to people whose appearance is similar to their own in some way, whether height – build - face – often without even realising it..

Yet - I was reminded by a friend that in truth – all lists aside - it really comes down to one thing… Chemistry.
Yes - Chemistry… that’s all it takes. It’s something you can’t fake. It’s either there – or it isn’t.
Chemistry is what you feel when your hands accidentally touch - or when your eyes meet. It’s when the 1st and last thing you think of - at the beginning and end of each day respectively – is them. It’s when you’re busy, tired, stressed, or under the weather, yet the thought of them makes you smile. It’s when you see their imperfections and little quirks - yet they bother you not – you find them endearing –and you love them all the more for it. It's when you never want to change them - you accept them - totally. It’s when the smallest offhand remark they make can upset you for days - but when you see them you forget you were ever upset – and all you can do is smile. It's when you can’t wait to see them again - so you count the days - hours - minutes… yet when that time comes – and you're together…you want to stop the clock!.

It’s when you can talk to them for days - or sit with them in silence... yet hear their every word. It’s when they’re the only person in a crowded room - and the light in the darkness. It’s when you’d be happy to share a plate with only one set of cutlery – yet equally - present them with a beautifully catered meal with enough glamour and splendor fit for a king or queen. It’s when your heart races on sight and you act like a teenager, despite being in your 30’s - 40s - 50s or more. It’s when all your preferences and preconceived ideas of who you thought you’d fall in love with go out the window - and you're rocked to your core – yet never ask – why?.
Chemistry is silent – aided possibly by pheromones – the intoxicating scent that attracts a mate compatible to your DNA. – It’s unique – to you.
Chemistry is beautiful, funny, smart, and rare.

It’s doesn’t happen often – it’s not meant to!..
Its desire – it’s motive is to jolt you – to surprise you when you thought all hope was lost. It can soften even the hardest heart and commit the un-committable..turn your world upside down – and cause you to rethink your plans.
Chemistry is cool - unfussy - unpretentious - and relaxed. It doesn’t try too hard – it doesn’t have to… it operates alone – a freelancer.
So don’t worry if you don’t have a mate on Valentine’s Day – as Love has no definitive timeline – it’s omnipresent.
So trust in the law of nature – and have faith – as Chemistry… will be well worth the wait!

So readers - I hoped you're all feeling suitably romantic now…
I know I am
Happy Valentines Dayx

Sunday 6 February 2011


Home of the past
You cling to for security
Despite the pain it causes
It feeds you
Fills your veins
Reminds you you’re alive
So you hunger for more
Yet it crushes you… your spirit…your hope…your joy
Creating a new home...
Takes courage…you are brave...yes
A fighter
A survivor...never forget
You are still here
Still standing...
Despite it all… despite them all
Damn… that was tough
Yes...a brave new world
A brave new you
A new space where hope can again live
where joy can be joyful
A seed – a spark
A smile
You thought you’d never smile again
Your past told you that
The past you clung to for security
Clung to...
Past tense now
Never to be repeated
Now you're home
Truly home

For Sis

I know you like this but can never remember what it's enjoy..
Do we ever really know anything??
Both sides now!! should be a Librans anthem...

2011, International Year for people of African Descent

Yes.. it's not only the year of the Rabbit

2011 - this year - is the International year for people of African Descent...some may argue... well that's all of us then!! well... yes... but none of your lip right now .. you know what I mean.. possibly.. those of us with.. shall we say.. a slightly darker hue, who face the most discrimination for no other reason.. other than..( I'm simplifying I know!!)Check the UN Website
Which means.. that this year... should be like one year long birthday party.. with nice treatment..presents and 'everyfink!'..hey..where's the fan fair??..where're my presents??'
I digress...anyway...

Not sure if it will mean much to anyone but I've lifted a bit of text from the site for any passing eyes...

2011, International Year for People of African Descent

Title 2011, International Year for People of African Descent
Lead On 18 December 2009, the United Nations General Assembly proclaimed the year beginning on 1 January 2011 the International Year for People of African Descent (A/RES/64/169).
Source ONU
Publication Date 2010-12-10 12:00 pm

Text 1 The Year aims at 'strengthening national actions and regional and international cooperation for the benefit of people of African descent in relation to their full enjoyment of economic, cultural, social, civil and political rights, their participation and integration in all political, economic, social and cultural aspects of society, and the promotion of a greater knowledge of and respect for their diverse heritage and culture.

The General Assembly encourages Member States, the specialized agencies of the United Nations system, within their respective mandates and existing resources, and civil society to make preparations for and identify possible initiatives that can contribute to the success of the Year.'

Maybe... once I've sorted my garden.. I'll have a nice barbecue in recognition... yeah... I think I'll do that..
How about you?.. how will you celebrate? will you celebrate?

Here's a question... should it be recognised in workplaces??
If not.. why?
If so..why?
I'd love to do an episode of that show.. who do you think you are..
I'm convinced I'm descended from either royalty or warlords.. oh lord have mercy - imagine the disappointment if I'm not!! :-)
oh lord have mercy.. imagine the attitude if I am!!
I am joking of course..
Yes, I must remember to add modesty to my list of qualities...Xtra or what( as the kids would say)

Chinese New Year 2011

Hey y'all..
I'm on a China tip today..

This year 3rd Feb saw the start of the Chinese New Year.
This is the year of the Rabbit( please correct me if I'm wrong)

Word has it that this year will be a placid year!!.. a congenial time where diplomacy , international relations and politics will be given a front seat again.
It's also been mentioned that law and order will be lax, rules an regulations not rigidly enforced and many of us will make money without too much labour and enjoy a leisurely lifestyle... ( Big Society?.. I'm not sure this is how Cameron sees it!) it's said we will act with discretion and make responsible concessions..

You still with me???
I read this somewhere when I was researching CNY...don't ask me why..

Sounds nice.. doesn't sound much like life in the UK after spending cuts but you never know..
maybe everyone will get so sick of fighting that well start to chill out.. live in tents.. smoke and get laid like in the 60's... but the 60's was also a time of great change.. activists and marches... hmmmmm

Anyway.. here's something that may amuse you...
Born in '68( that was a great year wasn't it...) my sign is... the Monkey! - I am... they say...a monkey girl... very intelligent and able to influence people..
elegant and beautiful with a love of stage lights... I can hear you laughing..
I laughed too... trust me.. there's much much more...
fun to read though.. check yours out if your that way inclined..

You know, there are many great qualities, skills, and knowledge that exists in Chinese Culture
Let's hope they play home and on the worlds stage.. moving forward

Happy Chinese New Year Everyone
I nearly signed off M.G but if you say that to me I may have to hurt youx
Now.. stop distracting me.. I have to study

A Fair Deal?

There's an old saying...

'If you don't know what you have..
you will loose what you've got..
Interesting.. I'm tempted to say..'Wake up Africa.. or not.. choice is yours!'
But I wont :-)but remember..there's no such thing as a free lunch!

Early Wailers

Great things can come from small communities
with the right people around you... sky's the limit
Choose your friends wisely...

Saturday 5 February 2011

Martin Luther King Jr

Attended a great seminar at Operation Black Vote.
Met a great bunch of leaders... all keen to do whatever they can to make a difference - to someone...
Because.. people.. matter..

We were reminded of a quote by Martin Luther King Jr that really summed up the day for us.. so... I thought I'd share it!!

"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter!"

That's it..
until the next time...

One for all Reggae Fans!!

Why musicians are great!!

The Restless Child

An African mother sat in the shade
To comfort her crying child
Why so restless she did ask
Did you not eat today?
Did I not give you warm milk to drink?
Did your friends not come to play?

Do you not have a roof?
Thatched with elephant grass..
To cover your head and keep you dry
Each and every night?
Your father will protect you
Teach you to tend the herd
So tell me why you cry my son
For sadness is unheard

The boy looked at his mother’s face
And immediately did say
I want to travel up there with them
Take a plane far far away
To see where other people live
England.. America too
But don’t worry mother
You know that I..
Will always come back to you

I want to learn about the world
Meet those different to me…
But most importantly
Mother dear
I want a Playstation 3!

Playstation three is out of date!..
Keep up!! his mother replied..
Now text your father and tell him come..
For dinner
It’s stir fry rice

I’ll do that mother but can I go?
One day his mother sighed!
Maybe one day we’ll have to go…
When this old way of life has died

Friday 4 February 2011


The closer I am
To feel…to hear…to touch
My senses become distorted… the focus blurred
Suddenly I can only hear the faintest sounds
Like the closing of an eyelid
A racing heart...
Where am I
Unfamiliar ground

Distance the enemy
Oh great purveyor of loneliness
Of sadness
Long phone calls
Empty beds
A journey…resolved…again

The closer I am
The further I travel
A desire for more…
An awakening
I see… I hear
A new focus
Heightened by an innate desire for greatness

The closer I am
To feel…to hear…to touch

I am closer

You know you're turning into your mum when....

1. You set the end of your Sunday lunch to coincide with Songs of Praise, then follow the subtitles and sing along.

You know you're not when ... you throw away an item of clothing that has at least '5 more years of wear in it!' simply because you just didn't like it anymore!!

2. You know you are when... you see nothing wrong with doing a spot of gardening in the freezing winter without a jacket!!..

You know you're not when... you still insist on looking cute out there... and quite sun... no show!!

3.You know you are when... you see the good in everyone
You know your not when... you still view some people as arseholes!!

4. you know you are when... you recycle everything...
You know your not when... you still 'chuck stuff' in the bin!!

5. You know you are when.... you can make a meal out of anything... and have it taste fantastic....
You know your not when... your child says' "your food is dry!!... and "get some recipes from Grandma!!"

p.s I can cook by the wayx

6. You know you are when... you learn the real meaning of patience and understanding
You know your not when.. you still fret about everything.. and nothing ever happens fast enough!!

Do we practice inequality in our daily discourse?

Funny how what we see in one person we view in a completely different way in another.
Here’s a useful list that you can tap into any time you like.

Do people change their behavior?… or do we deliberately alter our perceptions to suit our own prejudices?
Feel free to comment – or add a few of your own!!
Have fun…

Word - Vs - Word

Strategic - Lazy
Flexible - Disorganized
Tomboy - ‘Mannish/Butch’
Assertive - Aggressive
Unfussy - Tardy
Emotional - Unstable
Outspoken - Rude
Ambitious - Pushy
Creative - Wacky
Unique - Odd
Stylish - High Maintenance
A Professional - A Good Worker
Fit - Athletic
Masculine - Brutish
Quiet - Anti Social
Passionate - Out of control
Cute - Fickle
Posh - Pretentious
Fiery - Attacking
Straightforward - Blunt
Direct - Intimidating
Indirect - Insincere
Thoughtful - Cunning
Accident Prone - Clumsy
Forgetful - Scatty
Business Brain - Dodgy
Curious - Nosey
Questioning - Argumentative

PS... only asking!!

Wednesday 2 February 2011

The Kindness of Strangers

Strangers both excite and scare me in equal measure - yet like a lit flame both are strangely hypnotic - capable of holding your attention at times against your will..

There was a time when your closest friends were unknown to you - an unfamiliar face -unfamiliar voice - and an unfamiliar name. Unless a special chemistry was present at the first encounter chances are (had you never crossed paths again) they would have remained strangers never to stand in your shadow again. Time invested can transform strangers into acquaintances... yet then again there are people you see and possibly speak to everyday who remain strangers still.

The emphasis therefore could be placed on the quality of the time invested. How well you communicate - how honest and how trust worthy you are. Fact is - a simple act of kindness from a stranger can completely change the way you feel and view the world.

So why do they excite me?... well… much like a journey to new lands I’m eager to learn more - experience something new - increase my passion for life - understanding - and love. You never know what role a stranger could potentially play in your life - they could absolutely transform it - you begin to wonder of the great mystery that caused your paths to cross - you just don’t know – which leads me seamlessly onto why they scare me – you just don’t know!!. Strangers could also bring with them stress - upset - confusion - and an unyielding motivation for mischief - mayhem - ' mix up' and a Machiavellian, master class in misery.


So you look for little signs - small subtle signs that may indicate which way the pendulum swings. Then, when you feel a bit more secure – at some point you take the plunge and Trust ( yikes!!)
I enjoy simple things like someone holding open a door - or holding the lift - or an honest smile ( for no reason and minus the feisty eye rolling later on) and I get that often – more often than not actually – which is encouraging – as it definitely brings out the best in me. Yet - I loathe the feeling of disappointment in mankind to the point that I try ever so much not to look for it at all ( you may try the …avoid eye contact and they can’t let you down technique!!) but despite myself …despite all my best efforts… all my attempts - I still expect it... every time.
Yep - hold the door - hold the lift - offer your seat - you see where I’m going with this!!!
I wonder if it’s a predominantly female thing. Maybe as women we’re hard wired in that way I don’t’ know.
I don’t think people necessarily have to try to be kind – I think they should take steps not to be - unkind. Kindness - by default perhaps - will be the result. I don’t want to confuse being helpful with being kind as there’s a difference. Please note - you can be helpful and still be an ass!! …at the same time too!!
No - there is something exquisitely special about the kindness of strangers, and I can’t close my eyes to that no matter how hard I try.